Illness/Sickness/ Bad Health....

 "Illness - a disease or period of sickness affecting the body or mind."

There are so many words or connotations to say that someone is ill or that they have bad health. But no matter how you explain it or what words you use the end definition is that person has something wrong with them physically or maybe even mentally right! 

I suffer from a long list of illnesses and the funniest thing about it all is that with age these things will only get bad and that is something a doctor has confirmed to me. He literally told me that I am the 10% statistic that I have inherited all the bad genes from my family. He was like you have unfortanetly got the genes that means any illness you parent of grandparents have then you will get them. He was like look after yourself but at some point in your life you will get the illness. To be honest I had accepted this years ago before he even told me. I mean I have diabetes type 1, chronic pains and now I have asthma. So the diabetes elements is from my grandmothers. The chronic pain I have no idea which relative has had that. The asthma is from dad and that side of the family but my sister and nephew also suffer from that. 

So my mornings consist of this: 

As you can see in the picture my mornings and evenings also consist of injections, inhalers and popping pills. Without any of this I would find it very hard to do anything and that is the honest truth. I could sit here all day everyday and bang on about how hard life is for me to live with these illnesses but whats the point it isn't going to take them away or change that I have them. Instead I just embrace it, every time I get some sort of bad news from the doctors I just embrace it. Take the medicine I need to and crack on with my life. You can't let things or illnesses stop you from your enjoying your life. Yeah alright it might take you longer to do things but you can still do them if you really want too. 

I hate the Indian mentality around illness, of that your so young how on earth you could you get ill? Or how on earth can you feel this way you are young. I feel like saying to these people you idiots educate yourself. You can get any illness at any point of your life. You can feel exhaustion, pains and everything else an older person feels becasuse that is how illness and life works. We don't ask for these things they just happen. I didn't eat too much sugar as a kid for me to get diabetes! I didn't get chronic pain becuase I am overweight and I didn't get asthma because I didn't exercise enough. I got them because I got some fucked up genes and DNA thanks to my parents and ancestral family line. I think Indian people need to stop being so fucking judgmental and instead of believing everything they see on the news or social media actually use their smartphones to educate themselves on how illnesses and DNA works!! 

So I spend my days like that picture above and some days I spend it like that but from my bed. Other days I am running at 100 mph! You can never know how your body will feel when you wake up but for me the most important thing is that number one I wake up and I actually feel. Because that means I am alive and get to enjoy another day of my life!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                

           

Year of Healing

The year of 2022 for me is the year of healing and getting my health back on track. I have had so many problems over the years especially with aches and pains that I just needed to get it fixed and sorted it out. The year has consisted of seeing a chiropractor, physiotherapist and an acupuncture specialist.

I have had such a bad back and neck for so long that I actually just accepted that it would always be like that. My husband actually said I have the worlds uncrackable back as I could never click it or get rid of the tightness. So as part of my Christmas presents I received a Groupon voucher for a chiropractor and honestly it was the best thing I have got. 

Firstly, I saw the chiropractor who was so lovely and he literally told me exactly what all my pains where and how he would be able to help me fix it. All those of years of pain and suffering with my back and neck explained to me so easily. I have been going to him for nearly a month and he has helped me so much. I can't believe he is actually able to click my "unclickable" back. He explained that I have sciatica in my neck and that is causing issues in my lower back. It is amazing how much better you can start to feel once you get someone who can clearly state the problem and fix it. I still have a long way to go but the progress that has been made in the last few weeks are such a reassurance that things will only get better. 

Secondly, I am seeing a new physiotherapist as my old one wasn't very good. So I diagnosed with a frozen shoulder at the end of 2020. At first I thought it was just my usual shoulder pain but the doctors confirmed it. My old physiotherapist wasn't good so I was told about another one and he has helped me out so much. I honestly sing his praises to everyone and how much he has helped me. I wasn't even able to do daily tasks like wash my hair or even change my clothes but with his help I have so much more mobility in my shoulder and arm. Sky therapy has helped me so much. I have been to see him about 4 times all ready and their is such an improvement. I know I have some more work to put in but just knowing that it is getting better makes me feel so much better about it. 

Lastly, I have been going to see an acupuncture. As you are all aware of my fertility issues and the never ending saga of periods and then no periods, that obviously is causing a lot of fertility problems for me. So I was advised my some friends to try out acupuncture to see if that helps. I have had about three sessions and its really weird after every session because I feel different. Sometimes I feel like I have bad cramps, sometimes I feel really tired and sometimes I just feel like my legs will give out. |t is crazy how little needles that are placed in a particular place can have such an effect on the body. She explains that certain needles are for hormones, the others are for energy. Every time I go there she just says relax and the first few times I couldn't as I was like their are needles sticking out of me but now I am so tired I automatically just relax. Let's see if it helps. She said that this may not be the answer because ovulation and pregnancy is something that can just happen when you least expect it. But even if doesn't help with the pregnancy  it would be relief if it helps with the periods.

It is insane that just in the month of January I have managed to have all these appointments and already feel like my body is already starting to improve and heal. A healthy body is the key to achieving a healthy mind, well they say something like that. 

Nav's Nonsense Playlist

 I always have jumped between listening to Western music and punjabi music. I have always been brought up listening to punjabi music as that is my culture. When I was growing up it use to be uncool listening to punjabi music because you were constantly surrounded by Western music but as I grew older I was able to make those differences and actually make a decision for myself. 

Punjabi music has changed a lot over the years and with producers like Steel Bangles who himself is a Punjabi was able to cross in the UK music industry and work with artists like Mist, Tion Wayne and that's to name a few. He then crossed the pond and worked with Sidhu Moosewala who is a big name within the punjabi music scene.  By working with the two he then was collaborating punjabi artist with British artists.  This then I feel set a precedent for others artists within the punjabi music scene to experiment with their sounds and music! 

So now all I tend to do is listen to punjabi music so here is my playlist for my favourite songs at the moment: 

• Takeover  - AP Dhillon 
• Toxic - AP Dhillon 
• Ma Belle - AP Dhillon 
• Majhail - AP Dhillon 
• Excuses - AP Dhillon 
• Insane - AP Dhillon 
• We Rollin - Shubh 
• Celebrity Killer - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Sidhu Son - Sidhu Moosewala 
• 295 - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Invincible - Sidhu Moosewala 
• G Wagon - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Calaboose - Sidhu Moosewala 
• So Far - Karan Aujla
• Top Notch Gabru - Vicky 
• Top Class Desi - Jimmy Kaler 
• Mutiyaare Ne - Jassa Dhillon 
• Thand Rakh - Himmat Sandhu 
• Rubicon - Amrit Mann
• Majha Block -Prem Dhillon 

 

 

  

 

 

  

  

  

 

  

  

  

 

  

  

2021 - 2022

 Normally every year I write a breakdown of what has happened in that year. However this year I felt like doing something different, I didn't feel like writing the usual so I am just going to give a brief of what has happened and just that there is so much to look forward. 

2022 will be much similar to 2021 in terms of family weddings, last year we had so many family weddings and functions. Only one was in peak covid times and that was an experience in itself. It was weird to get all dressed up only to be sitting around and waiting as we couldn't actually attend the ceremony itself. However we were very lucky that all the other weddings and party functions weren't in peak Covid times and we really got to enjoy them. 

I don't want to sit here and write about all the good/ bad of 2021 because you know what there was a mixture of it all like there always is. Everything that was meant to happen last year probably happened. There was tears, laughter and everything in between. 

This year I will really be focusing on healing myself, physically and mentally. The last few years have been so draining and I can feel the toll on my body. I just feel like this year the outloook is a good one because a heatlhy mine and body will let you achieve anything. 

So the new year started and with a new book to fill with pages of all the good and bad stuff that will happen. You will always have both as they balance each other out, and that's alright it doesn't mean that it will be a bad year nor will it mean that this will be the best year of my life. But I turn 29 this year so I want to go in to the 30's next year with a much healthier mind and body! 

Let's see what this year holds for all of us! 

Kerastase Blond Shampoo Review

As soon as I went blonde with my hair, I started researching the best purple shampoo's. As the purple shampoo let's you keep up with the maintenance of the blonde hair. It took me a while but with the help of my wonderful hairdresser I found the best one for my hair. The kerastase blonde shampoo is perfect for me, and let me tell you this shampoo works wonders. 

I used it for five weeks straight whilst in Canada and this was the first time that I was using it properly and for a long duration of time. I had no problem with the shampoo and it didn't make my hair feel greasy nor did my hair lose any of the blonde. Even my roots weren't showing for a long time after. It was nice to use a shampoo that actually worked on my hair and didn't make me feel like my hair hadn't been washed. I hate it when you use a shampoo sometimes and it literally feels like you haven't washed your hair. 

I then went off using Kerastase for like a few weeks as I thought the Olaplex Blonde would be good (check out my review on that). It turns out that wasn't very good and I went back to using the Kerastase Blonde but this time I was using the hydration version as my hair was too toned and its been so good. I wouldn't ever change my shampoo as this is working so well for me. 

Literally after one wash I could see and feel the difference. Even now I hardly have to wash it and it maintains the colour as well. I have finally found the shampoo for me and honestly it is the best. 

My overall review on it is as 10/10 because it is exactly what I want for my hair! 

Using Kerastase:

Olaplex Purple Shampoo Review

 People love Olaplex shampoo and their products, frankly if you haven't heard about it then I am surprised. As it is always all over social media, hair salons use it and a lot of Make Up artists put it on their social media pages. It is promoted a fair bit and always promoted for good hair growth. 

My hairdresser who also happens to one of my sis in laws mentioned to me that Olaplex has launched a purple shampoo for blonde hair. I found this out whilst I was on holiday in Canada, so I decided to go ahead and purchase it. I never personally had brought the Olaplex shampoo but it had been used on my hair at the salon and my hair had always turned out nice. I thought why not go ahead and I did. 

I came back off my holiday and started to using it from the first wash I wasn't impressed with it. My hair felt like it hadn't been washed properly. But I thought let me give it a chance. I used it for four washes in total and it started to turn my hair silver, it was toning my hair too much. I at first thought it was just me but then my cousin made a comment, he was like your hair is really silver. Then my sister started seeing that my hair was separating in colour and going gingery at my roots with silver ends. I went back to my hairdresser and literally was like please help me fix my hair. She took it off my hands and gave me my favourite shampoo Kerastase. 

As soon as I started using the Kerastase again my hair went back to it's usual blonde. I then went back to get my hair done and spoke to my hairdresser about the Oplaplex Blonde. She was like you are right and it is a terrible shampoo. She goes she experimented on other people at the salon to see what would happen and she goes that it was turning their hair colours all sorts of different shades. She was having to re- tone the customers hair. She was like Olaplex is so good but it turns out their blonde shampoo is not good. 

So Olaplex Purple Shampoo is rubbish and bad. For a company that has such good reviews for their shampoo haven't got this one right. They have really got this formula wrong and it doesn't do what it should do. 

I give this shampoo a 1/10. If you have blonde hair I would not recommend this shampoo at all. 

                                                                     Hair before using: 

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Olaplex: 

What if?

 What if things happened that we didn't expect in our life. Or what if things happened that didn't happen at that time. I always wonder to myself what if instead of the life we are living we weren't living because of a decision. 

For example, say you didn't break up with that person, or you didn't decide to get married to that person. Or you got the job that you always wanted instead of being rejected. Instead of walking down path A you went down path B. Where would you end up? And would you be happy in that life. 

I know that they say everything happens for a reason but what if those things happened that we wanted at that time. Would life be so different then the one that we are living. I always ponder on this thought and not because I have a bad life and want to change it. I would just love to see how it all would turn out. Like would I be happy, successful and importantly content. 

Because at one point in my life all I wanted all those things that didn't happen so would I be happy if I got it. I know it will always be one of the unanswered questions but it would be amazing to know what the outcomes were of those decisions. Like if I had made it in the medical field would it be everything I would want. Would've I married my husband? I feel like life would be super different that I would be such a different person. Maybe part of me would resent it and want the life that I live now. 

Have you ever wondered about that big "WHAT IF?" Where would it have taken you?