Nav's Nonsense Playlist

 I always have jumped between listening to Western music and punjabi music. I have always been brought up listening to punjabi music as that is my culture. When I was growing up it use to be uncool listening to punjabi music because you were constantly surrounded by Western music but as I grew older I was able to make those differences and actually make a decision for myself. 

Punjabi music has changed a lot over the years and with producers like Steel Bangles who himself is a Punjabi was able to cross in the UK music industry and work with artists like Mist, Tion Wayne and that's to name a few. He then crossed the pond and worked with Sidhu Moosewala who is a big name within the punjabi music scene.  By working with the two he then was collaborating punjabi artist with British artists.  This then I feel set a precedent for others artists within the punjabi music scene to experiment with their sounds and music! 

So now all I tend to do is listen to punjabi music so here is my playlist for my favourite songs at the moment: 

• Takeover  - AP Dhillon 
• Toxic - AP Dhillon 
• Ma Belle - AP Dhillon 
• Majhail - AP Dhillon 
• Excuses - AP Dhillon 
• Insane - AP Dhillon 
• We Rollin - Shubh 
• Celebrity Killer - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Sidhu Son - Sidhu Moosewala 
• 295 - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Invincible - Sidhu Moosewala 
• G Wagon - Sidhu Moosewala 
• Calaboose - Sidhu Moosewala 
• So Far - Karan Aujla
• Top Notch Gabru - Vicky 
• Top Class Desi - Jimmy Kaler 
• Mutiyaare Ne - Jassa Dhillon 
• Thand Rakh - Himmat Sandhu 
• Rubicon - Amrit Mann
• Majha Block -Prem Dhillon 

 

 

  

 

 

  

  

  

 

  

  

  

 

  

  

2021 - 2022

 Normally every year I write a breakdown of what has happened in that year. However this year I felt like doing something different, I didn't feel like writing the usual so I am just going to give a brief of what has happened and just that there is so much to look forward. 

2022 will be much similar to 2021 in terms of family weddings, last year we had so many family weddings and functions. Only one was in peak covid times and that was an experience in itself. It was weird to get all dressed up only to be sitting around and waiting as we couldn't actually attend the ceremony itself. However we were very lucky that all the other weddings and party functions weren't in peak Covid times and we really got to enjoy them. 

I don't want to sit here and write about all the good/ bad of 2021 because you know what there was a mixture of it all like there always is. Everything that was meant to happen last year probably happened. There was tears, laughter and everything in between. 

This year I will really be focusing on healing myself, physically and mentally. The last few years have been so draining and I can feel the toll on my body. I just feel like this year the outloook is a good one because a heatlhy mine and body will let you achieve anything. 

So the new year started and with a new book to fill with pages of all the good and bad stuff that will happen. You will always have both as they balance each other out, and that's alright it doesn't mean that it will be a bad year nor will it mean that this will be the best year of my life. But I turn 29 this year so I want to go in to the 30's next year with a much healthier mind and body! 

Let's see what this year holds for all of us! 

Kerastase Blond Shampoo Review

As soon as I went blonde with my hair, I started researching the best purple shampoo's. As the purple shampoo let's you keep up with the maintenance of the blonde hair. It took me a while but with the help of my wonderful hairdresser I found the best one for my hair. The kerastase blonde shampoo is perfect for me, and let me tell you this shampoo works wonders. 

I used it for five weeks straight whilst in Canada and this was the first time that I was using it properly and for a long duration of time. I had no problem with the shampoo and it didn't make my hair feel greasy nor did my hair lose any of the blonde. Even my roots weren't showing for a long time after. It was nice to use a shampoo that actually worked on my hair and didn't make me feel like my hair hadn't been washed. I hate it when you use a shampoo sometimes and it literally feels like you haven't washed your hair. 

I then went off using Kerastase for like a few weeks as I thought the Olaplex Blonde would be good (check out my review on that). It turns out that wasn't very good and I went back to using the Kerastase Blonde but this time I was using the hydration version as my hair was too toned and its been so good. I wouldn't ever change my shampoo as this is working so well for me. 

Literally after one wash I could see and feel the difference. Even now I hardly have to wash it and it maintains the colour as well. I have finally found the shampoo for me and honestly it is the best. 

My overall review on it is as 10/10 because it is exactly what I want for my hair! 

Using Kerastase:

Olaplex Purple Shampoo Review

 People love Olaplex shampoo and their products, frankly if you haven't heard about it then I am surprised. As it is always all over social media, hair salons use it and a lot of Make Up artists put it on their social media pages. It is promoted a fair bit and always promoted for good hair growth. 

My hairdresser who also happens to one of my sis in laws mentioned to me that Olaplex has launched a purple shampoo for blonde hair. I found this out whilst I was on holiday in Canada, so I decided to go ahead and purchase it. I never personally had brought the Olaplex shampoo but it had been used on my hair at the salon and my hair had always turned out nice. I thought why not go ahead and I did. 

I came back off my holiday and started to using it from the first wash I wasn't impressed with it. My hair felt like it hadn't been washed properly. But I thought let me give it a chance. I used it for four washes in total and it started to turn my hair silver, it was toning my hair too much. I at first thought it was just me but then my cousin made a comment, he was like your hair is really silver. Then my sister started seeing that my hair was separating in colour and going gingery at my roots with silver ends. I went back to my hairdresser and literally was like please help me fix my hair. She took it off my hands and gave me my favourite shampoo Kerastase. 

As soon as I started using the Kerastase again my hair went back to it's usual blonde. I then went back to get my hair done and spoke to my hairdresser about the Oplaplex Blonde. She was like you are right and it is a terrible shampoo. She goes she experimented on other people at the salon to see what would happen and she goes that it was turning their hair colours all sorts of different shades. She was having to re- tone the customers hair. She was like Olaplex is so good but it turns out their blonde shampoo is not good. 

So Olaplex Purple Shampoo is rubbish and bad. For a company that has such good reviews for their shampoo haven't got this one right. They have really got this formula wrong and it doesn't do what it should do. 

I give this shampoo a 1/10. If you have blonde hair I would not recommend this shampoo at all. 

                                                                     Hair before using: 

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Olaplex: 

What if?

 What if things happened that we didn't expect in our life. Or what if things happened that didn't happen at that time. I always wonder to myself what if instead of the life we are living we weren't living because of a decision. 

For example, say you didn't break up with that person, or you didn't decide to get married to that person. Or you got the job that you always wanted instead of being rejected. Instead of walking down path A you went down path B. Where would you end up? And would you be happy in that life. 

I know that they say everything happens for a reason but what if those things happened that we wanted at that time. Would life be so different then the one that we are living. I always ponder on this thought and not because I have a bad life and want to change it. I would just love to see how it all would turn out. Like would I be happy, successful and importantly content. 

Because at one point in my life all I wanted all those things that didn't happen so would I be happy if I got it. I know it will always be one of the unanswered questions but it would be amazing to know what the outcomes were of those decisions. Like if I had made it in the medical field would it be everything I would want. Would've I married my husband? I feel like life would be super different that I would be such a different person. Maybe part of me would resent it and want the life that I live now. 

Have you ever wondered about that big "WHAT IF?" Where would it have taken you? 

Being a Indian girl

I am a British Asian and my family background is from India. So I can only really talk about my personal experience in life and probably most of you girls out there would be able to relate with this blog post. 

Its the hardest thing in this world is to be a girl. We come in to this world fighting because there a lot of people out there who would favour a boy over a girl. And they think it’s the worst possible thing to happen to them to have a daughter. 

We fight all throughout our life up until the point we aren’t here anymore. We have to struggle with periods and then with those periods come other gynaecology issues such as miscarriages, infertility, painful periods you think you would die. I mean the list is endless really. Then other problems arise in our lives.

For some girls it’s from a young age and others girls it’s when they get to the right age. But we get the question constantly when are you going  to get married? Have you found the one yet? If you can’t find someone we will do it for you. It’s like you’ve just finished your education and next thing you get a parade of boys in front of you.  

I got married when I was 24 years old and I personally think that’s so young. I didn’t know what wanted out of life heck I still don’t know. But I feel if I waited then maybe I would have more sense of what I wanted. It’s like ok I got married and no word of a lie within the same month of being married I started getting the when are you having kids then. I have been married for 4 years and I still get the when are you having kids question. 

It’s like we get so much pressure our whole lives. It’s like we just live in a world of pressure. Whether that’s from our own families, our in laws families or even extended families. 

I am glad I am waiting to have kids because it’s given me and my husband time to find ourselves and each other. I would like to have kids but my body isn’t cooperating. 

For the last year I put so much pressure on myself to get pregnant that I was actually starting to effect myself and my marriage. I was so stressed that I needed to do this and it didn’t even become about me it became about everybody else.

Furthermore, it’s like tomorrow when I have kids and say hypothetically I have all daughters I know people will think it’s there right to say to me well you should have a boy! It’s like screw you! First you tell when to married, then when to have a kid and now the gender of my kid. 

I think people are honestly fucked up in the head to think it’s ok to give there opinion and then force their opinion on you!

As a girl you are born in this world to please others and not do anything for yourself. I really hope the next generation doesn’t have to go through that scrutiny that we all have grown up with! 

So let’s move forward, get married when we want. Have a kid when we want or heck don’t have a kid! Just do what you want. If you want to get wasted drunk every night do it. If you want to go out and get with a different guy to do it! If you want to just chill in the comfort of your house with your dozen pets do it! Like do what makes you happy and not what makes others happy! 

I’m done living my stressed life for others with their opinions and will do what I want! 

My Long Saga with Periods

 I know that I have written and spoken about my periods time and time again. But this time I just feel it like I wouldn't ever come back to my normal self. If you are new and are just coming across this then perhaps I should start right from the beginning. 

My periods started when I was very young, I was only 10 years old when they started and it was fine I had no choice in life but to accept this like all girls. My periods were always really heavy and when I was 18 years old the doctors put me on the pill to help my regulate them which was great. In between the time of 18 and 26 I have come on and off the pill which is perfectly fine and normal. My periods were even ok during that time. 

So in December 2019, I said to my husband that I am going to come off the pill and let's see if we can start trying for a baby. I know what some of you are thinking but you said you didn't want kids, firstly people can change their minds and secondly when I saw my diabetes was going in a good direction I thought to myself maybe this is the time to try. So after coming off the pill for nine months I didn't have a period, in that time I did think to myself of wow maybe I am pregnant and like everybody else I could be having a 'lockdown baby' turns out the test was negative and it was just my body giving me off signals. I then had a period in September 2020, at first it started out all normal and fine but a month in it was super painful and super heavy. I contacted my doctor who thought perhaps I was having a miscarriage because I was bleeding so much. I wasn't but they were just really bad periods. I went for an ultrasound in October and then roughly a month or so later then sent me for another ultrasound and an appointment with the gynaecologist. The gynaecologist was like to me lucky I sent you for another ultrasound because if I went by your first set of scans I would be doing a hysterectomy on you as your scans were that bad. The gynaecologist then told me that I have PCOS ( polycystic ovary). That getting pregnant would be a tough task for me. She was like if by the summer you haven't conceived then do come back and see us. 

I then went away and again for a good few months I didn't have a period. However at the end of May 2021 it started again. It started off as it always does easy and then it gets tough. I remember thinking two months in to this period surely this has to stop. I asked the doctors for some tablets and they didn't work throughout my cousins wedding I leaked and bled on to each of my bottoms. No matter how much I ran to the toilet I wasn't getting there in time. I then just broke down to my family, I was like I can't take this anymore. It was getting me down not only physically but mentally too. I was getting panicked because I had to go up to Coventry for my brother in laws wedding. I remember going to one of the functions at the start of the wedding and we had to keep stopping at services because I knew I had to keep changing my pad. I had some tablets left over that the doctor had given me, and after speaking to a family member who is a pharmacist about taking the tablets. I was able to see the wedding with a bit of piece of mind. Eventually after 4 months of periods they stopped with medical intervention. 

That was getting me close to breaking point but I was still holding hope on getting pregnant. We got through a whirlwind summer and even a lovely holiday to Canada all period free. However within a week of us being back my period started. I thought it was going to be a gradual step of how they normal are. No not this time. My second day in, I woke up early as I didn't feel right so I went to the bathroom. As soon as I sat on the toilet I saw that all my underwear and bottoms were soaked. I still tried to keep it together and then as soon as I looked down there was blood all on the toilet and on the floor. I called for my sister and I just broke down. I just sat on the toilet and I wailed my eyes out. Why was this happening to me? Why was the blood so bad that I couldn't even go to the toilet without blood being everywhere? My sister bless her, got my up off the toilet and put me in the shower. She cleaned up all the messed that I had made as I just couldn't get over it. I just kept breaking down. I rang the doctor there and then, after speaking to the nurse I decided I needed to go back on the pill. I even just told my husband straight up, I was like as much as I would like to get pregnant now my mental health comes before anything else. 

Mentally and physically I am not ready for the journey of pregnancy and a baby. I can't have 4 months of straight bleeding and getting all my clothes dirty, get the beds dirty, even getting the sofa dirty. It isn't fair on myself or my family to see me go through that. It was so hard to see my family watch me breakdown like that. 

So for now that is where I am. I am back on the pill and I am going to focus on myself, on getting myself back to the happy, healthy person that I was. Then I will think about having babies and getting a private healthcare advisor to just have a look over again down below and take the next steps that are necessary. 

I am sharing this story so if there are those of you out there who are going through something similar then you aren't alone. It is horrible how much shame there is around periods, it's like people say get pregnant but yet hate when you mention about sex or periods. It is like all these things are connected! 

So if you ever feel alone like how I did, do reach out to family or a healthcare professional. Don't fall in family pressure of getting pregnant or not being able to talk about periods. Help is out there you just need to reach out.