June was such a bittersweet month for us, it’s like we had a dark cloud that was over us constantly with the occasional light coming through. No one should have to go through what we went through and as a family I don’t know how we got through it.
I don’t know how my husband managed to stay so calm during those horrific times and still be there for me & my family during our celebrations and happiness. June 2026 my husband suffered three major family losses. First his cousin brother passed away, then after 5 days or so his Masser (Uncle) passed away & then a week later his Chota Nana (younger grandfather) passed away. It was hard enough having to the process the first that we were then hit with the second and third!
Whilst all this had happened we had flown to the other side of the world and where in Bali for my cousin brothers wedding! We were stuck in a rock and a hard place because we had responsibilities at the wedding & back at home. We were in Bali and saw the wedding out but everyday we kept asking each other if anyone had contacted about what was happening back home, checking in with family and constantly apologising about not being here. We were taking moments out of the wedding celebrations to get 5 mins just to decompress and gather our thoughts. Or have the odd cry to process our grief and get our heads around what had happened. No one should have to go through one bereavement but to go through 3 consecutively is just heartbreaking.
The families support was so strong back home and with all my family in Bali. Everyone back home was encouraging us to enjoy the wedding and deal with home problems once we are back! And everyone in Bali was a backbone for me husband to help him get through these turbulent times. The wedding was fantastic (and will get its own blog post) and everyone around us supported us through it all.
I wish I could say that was the end of the passings for me but upon my return to work I was notified that one of my collegoues who worked in another department had suddenly passed away! How can 4 close people pass away? It was just in heard of.. my grief became amplified and I just couldn’t fathom how this had happened. I remember leaving work before my annual leave and he was happy, smiling! To then come back 2 weeks later to find he was no more. I sometimes just think he will come by my desk but I know he won’t..
June was filled with heartbreak, sadness mixed with happiness and then desperation to get to the bottom of the truth, to just truly understand why things happened the way they did. July has started with accepting what’s happened, cremating those who are no longer with us & honouring their memory.
Life moves forward and we move forward with it but that doesn’t mean the grief doesn’t stay. June 2026 will always be remembered for one of the most craziest months that perhaps we have ever lived.
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